The unexpected meeting. 

I wasn’t aware that you were coming in that certain place where I was going to. I somehow really missed you though, but this was so surprising. While me sitting along together with the other people, you unexpectedly show up which really shocked me at first. My heart just jumped out of its own, beating fast as it could be. I was so messed up at that time. I didn’t know what to do! I was panicking on how would I greet you, and talk to you once again. Talking to you once again…I really missed that. So I decided myself not to pretend that I didn’t notice you. And that’s the only way I can do to stop this continuous beating of my heart. But unfortunately, the more I avoid you, the more you can recognize me unexpectedly. So you went into me and greeted me with a simple “Hi”. Then, you held my hand and surprisingly hugged me so tightly that I could hear your heart beat so fast as mine too. “I really missed you.” You said, hugging me tighter.

I’m always in awe of people who could write, who could use the nibs of their pens to paint words on paper canvas. Many times I’ve been left breathless with suspense or heavy-hearted or teary-eyed or even laughing while reading a book.

I admire people who can use words with such precision that one can almost smell the scent of newly cut grass after a brief downpour or taste a hearty and sumptuous feast. I also admire people who writes, online or even offline. With our new generation with latest technologies today, many people can write words without their pens and papers. They just use their keyboards and starts to write what they want to spill it out. Amateur, normal writers, professionals or even unprofessional writers, I really envy them. I could even call them authors. Perfect or not, I admire them for letting their words in their minds be reached to everybody’s hearts.

It was one late afternoon when I was all alone in the classroom, sitting in your armchair. Imagining what would your life be sitting in this chair near the window..gazing out..daydreaming or even thinking of me if there’s a chance, which could be impossible. And with that, something hit through my mind..I didn’t even know why the heck did I think of it, but I was thinking about confessing..in an anonymous way. So I took my pen and tried to write all these feelings I’ve been holding back against you for years by writing in your armchair. Vandalism is not pretty important to me at that time and I don’t give a damn reason about it as long as I’ve expressed this indescribable feeling for you. As I ended, my last words were a little embarrassing for a simple person like me. It said,“If you ever love me back, I would definitely accept it no matter what.” That’s it. But who cares? No one would even find out that it was me..writing a love confession to a person that I was loving secretly.

As years passed by, we graduated from school life. I sometimes, even wondered if you have ever read my confession in your seat, but you didn’t. You didn’t notice it, saw it, and even ask other people who wrote them in your seat. And I was like, feeling a little pain in my heart. It was like my heart was stabbed a million times and felt a rejection about it. I even included your name on it. Don’t you have eyes to read it? Don’t you have hands to answer it? Don’t you have a heart to feel what I feel about you? That’s why I need to forget all about you..my feelings too.

I heard there was an alumni homecoming reunion so I went together with the person who replaced you..who loves me back. As I entered our old classroom, old classmates gladly gave me a heartwarming welcome back and I felt like I was a schoolgirl once again like the way I am before. Until I saw you..all alone with everybody bringing with them their special person, the person they love. I was conscious about why you didn’t brought one. Then, you came to me and gave out a hand to welcome me as well. “Welcome back.“ You said smiling and gazing at me which makes me again, a little uneasy. I smiled back and introduced my lover to you which shocked you at first. How come you’re all alone? Did you even found the right person for you? I erased this thoughts in my mind and tried to enjoy the party.

When everything’s over, I gave myself a moment all alone in my old classroom once again. I gaze out in the window sitting in an old armchair. And it came out that it was your chair before. It was just a coincidence, and I was really tempted to read back my confession to you before..so I did. And there I saw, a familiar handwritten words below mine and I eventually knew it was yours. It all came from you. I was already shedding my tears up so badly when I finally saw your answer.

"I knew it was you. Will you love me like the way you loved me?”

I was too late.

Imagine yourself being wrapped in a balloon. In this balloon, life seems so rough, full of struggles with much pains and few pleasures. There is no way out. Until one day that balloon breaks. You are on your way out, but something inside makes you long to find somewhere that balloon you were once in. This time, unbreakable, as it soars bravely beyond the thickens clouds.

I have been living with a simple life.
So simple that I have learned to be satisfied with what I can have. I thought that satisfaction would never last, and with the few pleasures I have, I would not long much. But as life took its turn, I pushed myself toward the opposite direction. Suddenly I fell, I stumbled..but I was lifted up!

I have spent my life in struggle of so many things.
A struggle through different circumstances. But life had been unfair to us, I did not win, but lose.

I am not perfect as anybody is,
But in my simple ways I tried to be one. I did whatever I thought was right, and what pleasant to those I dearly love. But all turned out a mess. I ended up a failure.

I turned away and chose another way to pass.
I thought that the struggles was over. I walked with the world. I was on my own. Nobody knows how far I went, except me and my Savior, it was a life so different, so enticing, and so alive. I thought I could have the satisfaction that I wanted. The world was so kind and really tempting..but in the end, it proved to be wrong.

I pushed myself towards that life so different but someone pulled me back behind my tracks.
I didn’t want to go back, so I ran an extra mile away. That running took me to another journey. I was drawn closer with the world. But just when I thought that my journey with the world would never end, I suddenly tripped on my toe. I expected the world to catch me, but I was never right. Nobody dared! They were just there..looked at me fall. I fell again! I was a pity. I was a shame.

I felt so tired and weak.
I was totally lost. It was the darkest chapter of my life. I laid myself in the corner..all I wanted was to rest. I didn’t want to go back, but something inside me told me to stand, but I could not. Then, I came to remember that someone who once pulled me back. As I looked back on my trail, still he was there behind. And even before I could ask Him for help, He stretched out his hand and carried me. I was shedding in tears as He took me back to the path where now I track.

There must be something He wants to look beyond..despite the pains, despite the trials, and despite the heartaches, he wants me to grow stronger no matter what happens. Life must go on! What I can only do is to accept the reality of it and bravely face the future with hope. I may be bruised and tired again and again in reaching the end of life, but with God, I can soar high despite all odds.

It’s really hard to face a challenge when courage is not there. Sometimes, I pity myself and want to cry with all those hardships that I’m experiencing. When I can’t sleep at night, it’s my habit to think and imagine myself of what I am in the future. How I wished I could be like Aladdin or Jasmine, soaring high in the sky on a magic carpet ride, seeing the whole view of my success.

Everyday, we meet different challenges. Our attitude highly depends upon the success we gain. “Enthusiasm makes the difference,” is a saying we must put in our minds. We can attain our dreams if we have enthusiasm for work. Living in a world without a purpose is like hitting our dreams without an arrow; like sweet candy at night that melts you’ve awaken. You move on through the day without direction. Adversity is the ultimate reason when success is not attained, but let our soul fly like the wings of an eagle and meet every obstacle with courage and determination.

When problems occur, we keep our heads up high and focus on the immediate solutions. “Let us soar on the wings of vision but keep on the rocks of reality.” Sometimes we dream and imagine ourselves on high position but we should never stop to consider the rough paths we have to cross. Relax but never stop climbing the stairs towards a victorious life.

Each of us has our own ambitions and goals in life. And as rational beings, we are bombarded daily with problems and all of those “molding effect.” For us to be successful in our ambitions and goals in life, let’s not forget to put God first in everything we do, because with God, nothing is impossible. Determination is another ingredient for success. We must be persevering and strong in everything that we encounter. We should also acquire the spirit of independence and competence for a happier life. 

Whether our goals are big and small, we have many things to consider in achieving them. Always put in mind to give and do our best to the fullest of our abilities, to strive hard and be ready to rise up especially when trials and obstacles are pushing down. We must set goals and ambitions in an organized manner—a step by step process—slowly but surely. So let’s choose to see life as perfect despite its imperfections. Live life to the fullest—fullest in the sense that what we are doing is suitable in man’s and God’s eyes.

I wanted her too badly and all I can do now is just watch her profile as a visitor, ask our friends if she’s okay, if she’s with someone else, if she still talks about me, if she still thinks about me. I keep reliving our last time together thinking maybe I could have done something different, things may have ended differently. But all is in vain, I can’t have her now, I am nothing to her now. 

We all know that tumblr is a blogging site. Well it’s not just a blogging site, it is the power of anonymity. Nobody wants to be judged or ridiculed by how they feel or think, we hide behind this visage of anonymity to feel safe that whatever we say or do, our true selves are unharmed. We are not here to judge and hurt people about their feelings in these world from now and then, we are here to express in a profound way. Let the ‘you’ come out in your true colors. Don’t be afraid. Share and express all the things you want, all the things you want to do, all the feelings you want to share, and all the things that makes you happy and contented. Express what’s your taste! Do you like foods? fashion? Cartoons? Everything? So go, share it to yourself, to everyone. Tell yourself about how you feel. Are you happy today? Sad? Inspired? Angry? Anything you feel about a certain person, a certain thing throughout the circumstances of your life. So go, let it out. No one hates you if you’re being you! In this site, this blogging site, tumblr. This is where you start being the person you’ve never showed before.

This guy unveils such dulcet bearing towards me. He has ways of making my heart move in quick, irregular motions. Yet the barricade around me is my admonition of all the memories. And so, my first defense mechanism sets in and that is none other than to flee. But I guess I haven't flown away that far since he still continues to express such pleasant sentiments filling my heart with so much glee. Hence, I decided to left my door ajar. If the door is open just an inch or so, the air will be migrating swiftly out of the area that’s available. But, the measure of capacity of air within the house is so large that it would take much longer to dispense all of the air through such a tiny vent. Fabian policy. safety. However, I’m trapped in a mix up mystification on how to respond to it. Cause i really can’t tell if this affection is more than friends or merely he’s natural aura.

If he spends time with you, waits for your last text, waits for your call, drops everything to go to you, and listens to every little details and remembers them by heart then he loves you, hands down. Don’t over think it, he loves you plain and simple. If none of those are present.

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate,neighbor, coworker, long-lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger) but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience help to create who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

Make every day count! Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before,and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don’t believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.

Everyone has private secrets and personal facts about themselves that aren’t easily shared with others. We all want to protect ourselves against criticism and teasing, so embarrassing moments are never really the first thing that we share with others. But the fact is, pretty much every single person has one of those deep, dark secrets that lingers around and is never revealed.