I know what I’ve done to you was off and wrong. I know ignoring you was not the best thing that I did and that I should have gave you an explanation instead of keeping my mouth shut whenever you’re around for more than a year.

I know it’s wrong to have feelings for you again. I know I don’t have a place in your heart anymore. And I understand why, it’s all my fault anyways. But I hope you know I have no intentions of gaining you back because I know you deserve more than what I am. Aren’t you a big believer of the quote “When you like a flower, you pick it up. When you love a flower, you take care of it, and water it”. I’m not gonna pick you up this time. I’ll admire you as a person because you made me fall for you the second time around.

I just want to say sorry for feeling this way again for you. I know where I should stand, don’t worry. I hope you have a nice day because you deserve one.

Sometimes, I wonder why something so wrong would feel just so right. Why some things just had to be kept securely and why some things and why we had to let go of something we never really held tight. Sometimes, love can’t always change what were never meant to be. But there are always some things that couldn’t be denied. Some hearts would break even if it wasn’t meant to be broken. Some commitments just had to be left unfulfilled. Love has its own plan even if we don’t always know what it is.

I was never a professional heartbreaker. I didn’t intend to hurt others. I didn’t even want people to break down because of my insensitivity. I do have a heart and I know how hard it felt to have given yours away only to be handed it back broken. I never meant to break a heart but I admit, I did break one. I could have given out a thousand reasons as to why I had done it. I could have denied the fact that it had been my fault but I knew it would only worsen the dilemma I made myself. It was a dilemma and I did not want others to know. A secret kept so long hoping to have it forgotten as time goes by. But no matter how hard I tried to keep it inside, I just could not. It brought back memories and happy thoughts and feelings…feelings I had for the person I have always loved. It was hard. The only things that kept me going were the faded memories of that person and me together. 

I’m always in awe of people who could write, who could use the nibs of their pens to paint words on paper canvas. Many times I’ve been left breathless with suspense or heavy-hearted or teary-eyed or even laughing while reading a book.

I admire people who can use words with such precision that one can almost smell the scent of newly cut grass after a brief downpour or taste a hearty and sumptuous feast. I also admire people who writes, online or even offline. With our new generation with latest technologies today, many people can write words without their pens and papers. They just use their keyboards and starts to write what they want to spill it out. Amateur, normal writers, professionals or even unprofessional writers, I really envy them. I could even call them authors. Perfect or not, I admire them for letting their words in their minds be reached to everybody’s hearts.

I think I could be a journalist in ten years. Yes, probably. By nature I am frank. I do not hesitate to say anything which I believe is true. And I believe in myself. And yet I think I’d really like to be a journalist someday. I think it is fun to be a journalist. But there are a lot of dangers in being a journalist. I realize that. But I believe in truth. For me, I only have to be honest, write or tell what is true, what is good, what is right. And if you believe truth, you’ll do anything for it.

I assure you I have loved no one else but you. I assure you that next to my family, it’s with you I drew some of my strength and to boast, I had never been this strong my whole life that’s why I prefer to be selfish on some things that would surely lessen your strength, the way I say things. Forgive me, if I had been selfish all these times but if I had to do it all through the remaining days of my life, I’ll do it to keep you from being hurt, because that’s the last thing I’m afraid of causing you. I love you and I really do and please be strong with what I am about to tell you and I’m really really sorry.

Humans have flaws. The world we’re all livin’ is not that perfect as well. Therefore we really can’t blame if the school has its own few bugs too. And really? To err is human. You don’t have to be so harsh if people had set forth their opinions about the school’s inadequacy, dissatisfaction from some teachings, uneasiness towards other schoolmates and this mean observations from other human beings who are also studying within the same academy. You really don’t have to say that they should leave the school if they would just complain. If you leave then you’re a loser for letting such a below par school make you quit and well maybe some of them are just stuck in the school and don’t have much of a choice but to stay even if how much they detest the institution. Another thing is, yes its true that “Everyone is entitled to his own opinions, but not his own facts.” (Quoted from Daniel Moynihan) yet, do you really want to make your 4 years such a very stressful experience because of so much hatred and insecurity? This person stares so brutishly? I mean, it is indeed true that feuds are inevitable. Well you can retaliate if that gives you satisfaction but c'mon? Isn’t it very tiring to hold on to grudge for too long? For the meantime, okay, let it all out. Use this page as your outlet, let those overwhelming emotions flare up here, but at some point in life you should learn the art of letting go. Too much chaos isn’t gonna help. Let alone, you’re all in the same school for Pete’s sake. Well, learning is a process. You won’t be just acquiring knowledge from the books, but i pretty sure you also learn how to get along with people.

Confessing your love for someone and then the feelings do not get reciprocated. Yes it’s painful, and yes this pain will probably burn for quite some time. But as long as there’s daylight in tomorrow, as long as this friendship has the slightest chance of making it through even though it would limp the whole way, one shall not lose hope, my light may seem far but its warmth will continue to embrace you.

Just because I’m hurt does not mean that I will forsake you as my friend. I asked you once to share me your pain and with this pain I shall grow, I will use it to understand you…not to judge or rush you but rather watch and wait for you. 

This new light I found shall shine and know that within me, you will always have a friend.

Marami sating babae ngayon e sinasaktan ang mga lalake. Yung hindi lang damdamin ang sinasaktan, kundi ang pisikal na anyo nila. Minsan, pinagtrip-tripan niyo talaga ang mga lalake. Sinusuntok-suntok niyo pa nga..sinisipa, sinampal-sampal niyo sila pagjinu-joke ka nila, hinahatak niyo pag mabagal kumilos at minsan iniinsulto mo sila kahit alam mong mao-offend sila. At marami din satin mga babae ay sinasaktan ang mga damdamin ng mga lalake. Niloloko,ginagamit,pinagtri-tripan at kung anu-ano pa kung wala kang magawa.. Ano ba sila? Punching bag para saktanin lang? Alam niyo, magkaparehas naman tayo sa mga lalake e. Patas na patas. At sa mga ginagawa niyo sa kanila, sa tingin niyo mabuti yan sa kapwa taong nasa paligid mo? Hindi na po tama yan. Bigyan niyo naman po sila ng konting respeto. May damdamin din sila, hindi sila kagaya ng isang robot na walang nararamdaman..di rin sila kasintigas ng bato ang mga puso at damdamin nila. Kung maisip niyo man na yung lahat na ginawa niyo sakanila ay isang malaking joke, para sakanila, hindi. Masakit na para sa kanila e. Hindi lahat ng lalake pinapakita ang nararamdaman. Pilit lang nila itong itago para maipakita nila sa atin na matatag sila, mapagkumbaba at nagbibigay sapat na respeto sa mga babaeng katulad natin Parang bullying na ata yung sinasaktan ng mga babae ang lalake at mga lalake ding sinasaktan ang mga babae. Hindi lahat ng mga lalake ay gago, minsan tayo rin mga babae..may pagkatanga din.

May mga tao talagang masunod lang yung ikasasaya nila, wala silang pakialam kung merong nasasaktang iba. Hindi naiisip kung ano ba talaga ang nararamdaman ng iba. Lalo na’t boyfriend/girlfriend mo pa. Mawala lang saglit eh meron na agad iba. Tapos meron din namang mga taong aali-aligid, mga “Abangers” mawala lang ng saglit yung isa bigla silang papasok at maninira ng relasyon ng iba. sana naman maintindihan nyo rin yung nararamdaman ng iba. TAO LANG rin sila, nasasaktan rin.

“Sometimes when people decide to leave you for good, you have to let them go. No matter how much you don’t want them to, there are some things that are far beyond our control. Even if you have the strength to fight for them, you have to accept the cold harsh truth, the people you can’t live without, can live without you.”

It’s really hard to face a challenge when courage is not there. Sometimes, I pity myself and want to cry with all those hardships that I’m experiencing. When I can’t sleep at night, it’s my habit to think and imagine myself of what I am in the future. How I wished I could be like Aladdin or Jasmine, soaring high in the sky on a magic carpet ride, seeing the whole view of my success.

Everyday, we meet different challenges. Our attitude highly depends upon the success we gain. “Enthusiasm makes the difference,” is a saying we must put in our minds. We can attain our dreams if we have enthusiasm for work. Living in a world without a purpose is like hitting our dreams without an arrow; like sweet candy at night that melts you’ve awaken. You move on through the day without direction. Adversity is the ultimate reason when success is not attained, but let our soul fly like the wings of an eagle and meet every obstacle with courage and determination.

When problems occur, we keep our heads up high and focus on the immediate solutions. “Let us soar on the wings of vision but keep on the rocks of reality.” Sometimes we dream and imagine ourselves on high position but we should never stop to consider the rough paths we have to cross. Relax but never stop climbing the stairs towards a victorious life.

Each of us has our own ambitions and goals in life. And as rational beings, we are bombarded daily with problems and all of those “molding effect.” For us to be successful in our ambitions and goals in life, let’s not forget to put God first in everything we do, because with God, nothing is impossible. Determination is another ingredient for success. We must be persevering and strong in everything that we encounter. We should also acquire the spirit of independence and competence for a happier life. 

Whether our goals are big and small, we have many things to consider in achieving them. Always put in mind to give and do our best to the fullest of our abilities, to strive hard and be ready to rise up especially when trials and obstacles are pushing down. We must set goals and ambitions in an organized manner—a step by step process—slowly but surely. So let’s choose to see life as perfect despite its imperfections. Live life to the fullest—fullest in the sense that what we are doing is suitable in man’s and God’s eyes.

I wanted her too badly and all I can do now is just watch her profile as a visitor, ask our friends if she’s okay, if she’s with someone else, if she still talks about me, if she still thinks about me. I keep reliving our last time together thinking maybe I could have done something different, things may have ended differently. But all is in vain, I can’t have her now, I am nothing to her now.